Friday, August 31, 2012

Inikah Rasanya

Mama , tolong aku....
akuu...aa...kuuu....
ini begitu sulit dikatakan.......
begitu sulit diketik juga...berat sekali jari ini..walaupun lebih berat berat bdanku...
yaudah lah ya.....
inikah rasanya..? :"|


" oh...no....."

"aaaannnjeeeehhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

ah eyyyy~ ~



"kangen. :| "




Tuesday, August 28, 2012

Stuck in My Head Movies

Nah nah ini nih.. uda ditonton dr kapan tapi tetep stuck in my head.. spoiler gpp yakk :D


 Dancer in the Dark (2000) 
Ini yg maen s Bjork, disini ceritanya doi jd Selma, pekerja pabrik yg sering bgt daydreaming pas lg kerja (i feel you, Sel.. *akrab). yg bikin oke karna alur ceritanya memuncak bgt ampe ending. JEDANG! nonton sndiri deh yee akhirnya pegimanee.. yg bikin ekeu suka lg karna d film ini doi bawain salah satu lagu fav ogut, judulnya "I've Seen it All" yang liriknya Deep a.k.a Jeuro #pakeU. Nah pas doi bawain lagu itu juga pas adegan jeuro. Jadi cociks sekalee :)


 Tideland (2005)
Film yg nyeritain anak kecil yg emak bapaknya skip terus, saking ga punya temennya doi punya 4 kepala barbie yg ceritanya dianggep temen curmen ama dia dan digantelin di jari2 tangannya..uda gitu terakhir2nya dia tinggal brg ama (mayat) ayahnya, punya pacar om2 sakit yang merupakan simpenan tante2 sakit, makan selai basi, wah kacau bgt idup dia, kesian. 

Synecdoche New York (2008)
sakit! ogut ntn film ini diulang 2x, pertamanya gak ngerti. tapi pas uda ngerti jd suka sekali ama film ini,,, adegan yang paling menyentuh pas s tokoh utamanya sedih tapi gak bisa nangis..gak bisanya karna doi sakit yg bikin matanya gabisa keluar air mata. Ripuh,lah.recommended sekali ini film... tp jgn ditonton pas lg deket2 deadline atau lagi putus cingtah yaaa...fufufufu


ARAL

SESUNGGUHNYA, BELAKANGAN INI KEARALANKU SUDAH TIDAK BISA DITANGGULANGI LAGI. EMOSI KU MEMUNCAK, KESAMPAHANKU MENINGKAT.

Boleh aral tapi tetep unyu, karena menjaga performa adalah suatu keharusan yang sudah mutlak.

 so keep it cute.  







cubanget kan typo-nya.tp aku lupa dapet dr mana. fuh!




R.I.P

Jadi kemaren2an setelah sekian lama baru nemu Holga 120 GCFN ku, pas dicobain sedih bgt blitz nya udah gak nyala..pdhl 4 wrna blitznya tu yg bkin unyu dan gemesin. ahhhh... eyyyyy~ makanya klo punya barang jangan dianggurin bwee~ uda ruksak aja baru memblee....

pas udah ga ada baru kerasa.. sedih deh liat kemesraanku dengan blitz ini beberapa tahun kemarin...










kini aku tanpamu, blitz :'(

sorry seems to be the hardest word

teruntuk rubbish - rubbish kecilku , Cila dan Cowita jangan pundung lagi ya ...



Sunday, August 26, 2012

jet

dear you, 

it's been couple months. we're stop talking and sharing things. where are you?  i even didn't find you in a place that you used belong, my heart. i can read the sign that you want to leave,and i won't stop you.
and you know what? i start not to find you anymore. i know  you  are out there finding something that i never understand. please take care your self, go out as much as you want, be free as you wanted to.
as your friend, i want thank you for being there, when my life was sucks and really fucked up for years. thank you for every laugh, for every sweetness, for every silly random things we've done. but like people said, even something really beautiful can be broken sometimes. yesterday, that "sometimes" felt so sucks. but today i take it as a lesson, shit always happen. and you have to okay with that.
as your lover, i want thank you for all mixed up feelings you gave, from sweet as heaven to fucked up as hell. from imagine our dream house to destroy our dream itself.  it's still nice to remember. but i won't repeat it again. thank you for teach me how to say enough.now i know how to love sincerely, how to manage heartache when it really hurts. pain is still the best teacher for me.
as your friend and your lover, i have to say, our time is out. there's no more us. i admit it,i lost you both. thank you and i really sorry for messing around. have a very happy life without me, dear you :) 






*kali ini gak pake hiks*

Friday, August 24, 2012

mistake

when you do the same thing over and over again, and you realize no matter how many times you repeat, it is still a mistake.

*HIKS.