jet

dear you, 

it's been couple months. we're stop talking and sharing things. where are you?  i even didn't find you in a place that you used belong, my heart. i can read the sign that you want to leave,and i won't stop you.

and you know what? i start not to find you anymore. i know  you  are out there finding something that i never understand. please take care your self, go out as much as you want, be free as you wanted to.

as your friend, i want thank you for being there, when my life was sucks and really fucked up for years. thank you for every laugh, for every sweetness, for every silly random things we've done. but like people said, even something really beautiful can be broken sometimes. yesterday, that "sometimes" felt so sucks. but today i take it as a lesson, shit always happen. and you have to okay with that.

as your lover, i want thank you for all mixed up feelings you gave, from sweet as heaven to fucked up as hell. from imagine our dream house to destroy our dream itself.  it's still nice to remember. but i won't repeat it again. thank you for teach me how to say enough.now i know how to love sincerely, how to manage heartache when it really hurts. pain is still the best teacher for me.

as your friend and your lover, i have to say, our time is out. there's no more us. i admit it,i lost you both. thank you and i really sorry for messing around. have a very happy life without me, dear you :) 

*kali ini gak pake hiks*